Finding balance

Love first manage later

I said today in a conversation with someone whom I was trying to reassess time allocation with. All relationships are about time management, no matter how much you care or don't care - you have to strike a balance so that you can spend time with the other people in your in life and also with yourself. More and more (or at least since my big move) I needed this time alone, to write and think to just be without people, without needing to respond anyone. Now that I'm getting settled, I'm trying to draw in these lines make them work and define what makes me happy and whole. This is a far cry from previous versions of myself(565 1.0) who lived completely for others and with others.

Once upon a time I looked only to one person for all of sustenance all of my joy, and it's not that he didn't provide it, but when it was gone - it was all gone. There was nothing left, no one and no thing to rely on. I always knew how much I had lost in terms of friendships, in terms of innocence, but never until recently did I realize how much of myself I lost. (on a side note Pandora just started playing Gravity- which in ever right is the song for 726)

So now I build and I draw lines. I start with me and I'm learning not to feel guilty for it.

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